second post today

was toking to laogong abt his work juz now... but he suddenly disappear and then came back in a cheerful tone with a diff topic and managed to brushed off the topic we were talking abt... hiax..

went for dinner with him after sch and that was the quietest dinner ive ever had... partly becoz i duno wat to say and hav nth appropriate to say at that moment...sry abt tat.. guessed laogong realise i wasn't in a talking mood and decided to stay quiet too..

at last manage to say everything out to him today... i dunno what is gonna happen next... he is working now...

i wun ask anything of him... coz i dunno wat is a correct request...or a fair request, both for him and me... request usually benefits one party more.. there fore i don wan to make a request that wld be unfair to him...... but at least he noes what i am thinking now...

lik a sulking gal, i am sitting here dunno wat is right and wat is wrong...dunno wat to do... hiax..
right and wrong have so many sides... which is the truely correct side of truth?... so paradoxical... i dunno studing cognitive is gd for me anot...makes me think too much to smth which might be so simple...

i onli noe i'll try get use to it even things stayed the way it is... i'll try anyway...

to laogong:
juz wanna you noe i cared for u all the same... even if im unhappy abt certain things abt you in life .. but my feelings wun be any lesser.... juz thought you shld noe...