some time alone...
know what.. im going mad.. im not really in good terms with laogong for quite awhile liao... i dunno isit becoz the way he talks to me smtimes or how he talks to me sometimes or even saying sorry to me... things that i can overlook in the past .. i cannot now.. i don know why... definitely not becoz i lik him any lesser... i always love him.. but its juz getting fustrating... abt how i cant ignore this little details lik i do in the past... im juz getting unaccomodating ... and he is... well.. abit diff from the past...
laogong can be really sweet smtimes but when things cropped up.. no matter how many times i repeat to him or how many times he ask me wats wrong... he still doesnt get wats the problem... even after i told him.. the next min he can still ask me " wat is really the prob?.. i really have no idea.."... really... wat more can i do... if laogong gonna be like this always ? then i need time to get use to it... becoz i really don lik it....its not only abt the the sry thing.. theres alot of other things too..
usually i have bao to talk to.... but now bao is kinda out of my reach... hiax...
maybe i need some time alone to ask myself wat i want... becoz im really getting fustrated abt him always not knowing wats wrong even after i told him wats wrong.... and also i need time to let myself accept that... he really don get wat is wrong... and i cant keep getting angry over wat he cant understand... if not we r gonna be getting conflict very often.. and i really don wanna tat...
i can see that laogong is also getting fustrated becoz he cant understand what im always getting angry over .... and i do know its his exam period... im sry abt being angry at the wrong timing... but i juz cant help it... im trying not to quarrel le... tats y im always ending up not talking much...
actually guys are kinda similar in terms of such things after some time during relationships... but i juz don lik it...
laogong is being really nice abt me going over seas... and keep reminding me of what to bring... i know i'll miss him alot... and i hope he'll miss me alot too... =)
maybe i just need some time alone...