the job seems great in all aspects except for one... time... i cant make my time suit his..
yes this job is great.. gd pay.. gd benefits... gd job scope... many things to learn... everyone wans me to take on this job.. saying its super worth it.. where can u find this kind of job that gives u 4 shirts, 2 shoes, 1 jacket, 2 pants/ 1 jeans every 3mths + morderately gd pay + gd people to work with?... but to me... its not gd at all if i cant live my life... if im suppose to spend all my time to this company and spend time with no one else at all... no time for family nor him...
is it my fault that i end work almost everyday at 10pm, reach home at 11pm... or is it his fault for slping super early nowadays?... i really hate missing our nite chats and its making me so freaking lonely... and i just have this feeling that its gonna get worse... im trying so hard to not lose my temper when we missed the nite chats.. and its getting harder everyday... 3 day in a row.. sux.. and its not as if i can see him often...=( its almost as gd as not communicating other than sms.. hiax..and smsing feels so super unreal.. makes this relationship feels super unreal.. im so freaking insecured...
we don have the chance to really tok.. hope you get to read this...