worked ytd....i had to force myself to smile, to greet, to sing along... to chat... when all i wanted was juz time alone to brood.... but thats what my job requires... so thats what i have to do.... and everyone juz wouldnt let me stay quiet, the moment i stop toking and starting to be in my own world...they would pull me out of it and keep taking turns to tok to me again... but i noe you all are doing it for my own gd.. thanks guys... really thanks alot...
zhenye surprised me too... thanks boi...
after work stayed at store... reading book.. staring... keeping my mind blank... i didnt even try to think at all... coz im tired thinking.. my mind asked for a rest... so rest is wat it got... my mind was empty the whole day...
my family are back from their vacation last night.. but i didnt even tok to them... which is not surprising...
i guess its gd to keep busy... i always give it to the feelings instead of look at the reality when im free and alone... which ends up having all the problems back in circles...
my birthday coming this thurs.. but i doubt i can celebrate.. not with my family... nor my friends... nor anyone... maybe i juz drop by store after school, which is 5pm coz i have test.....
* i don need you to make things better juz becoz my bday is coming.. i can manage on my own... we should take the rest that both of us needed that was long due....
this song in my blog is one of the songs i heard during work from THAT CD SHOP...
Olivia Ong - Sometimes when we touchYou ask me if I love you and I choke on my reply
I'd rather hurt you honestly than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you on what you say or do
I'm only just beginning to see the real you
And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much and I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you till I die
Till we both break down and cry
I want to hold you till the fear in me subsides
Romance and all its strategy leaves me battling with my pride
But through the insecurity some tenderness survivesI'm just another writer
still trapped within my truths
A hesitant prize fighter still trapped within my youth
And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much and I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you till I die
Till we both break down and cry
I want to hold you till the fear in me subsides
At times I'd like to break you and drive you to your knees
At times I'd like to break through and hold you endlessly
At times I understand you and I know how hard you've tried
I've watch while love commands you
and I've watched love pass you by
At times I think we're drifters, still searching for a friend
A brother or a sister, but then the passion flares again