a place where i can bare my heart to...
3rd of march!! i realise this trip to overseas is kinda diff from the one i have in Sec4 to Sarawak... although its only two weeks... but i kinda cant bear to leave... haha... the one i had to sarawak i was real glad i could go for a getaway...
hmm....today laogong came to eat breakfast... well.. we kinda had a fine time.. until he suddenly told me he not accompanying me to the air port tml liao ... wel...my mood really drop all the way frm the sky towards the earth... hurhur...well... logically it shld be right that he not follow our car there and back... its afterall practical... but ..... smtimes doing sweet and nice things means illogical and unpractical....
he actually offered to accompany me again when he realise i got abit unhappy when he say he not going.. but i kept declining...laogong say that in my heart i actually want him to go but verbally i say no...tats becoz i think there are times where certain things does not depend whether what i wan... but what he think he wans to do... if he things there isnt a need then its pointless to make him do smth juz becoz i wan him to do it or juz becoz i wan it.....
laogong was the one who got fustrated when he suggest he go with me and i said to him " anything"... then suddenly he say not going.. of course i wld be abit devastated lo... hmmm
its not only for this issue... actually theres alot of issue is the same... i don wan to have me to say it then he do it... becoz smtiings if i need to say then he do,... then its pointless le....
i don understand y guys can be all attentive at the start but after that the attentiveness seem to juz drain off from their system... and they could not find it again.... and its not becoz they don lik you anymore... but well.. its juz lik this....
i noe laogong don mean to make me angry... but he is juz lik this de lor... cant help...
think i kinda made him very fustrated with all my complains and tantrum... well.. at least he can have 2 weeks of peace.. without me complain and all... =) hope he enjoy his wrk at causeway...
actually laogong has his own attentiveness to me .. well... juz sometimes.. somethings.. haha.... cant help it eh... =x
laogong kinda cute abt wanting me to bring his jacket, etc... but im glad i have his jacket wit me too=)
[[ pig.. try not to work too hard yea? don fall sick... although i noe you can cope without me there.. but i don lik the idea that you fall sick and im not there for u ok? muackx....i'll be back real fast~~ 2 weeks... don run away oh.... ~~ =) ]]
i love you & i'll miss u...
really don feel lik leaving now.. but i noe i will have a great time there when i've reach cambodia...