for anyone who claims to know me, the first thing they would say that i'm a person who enjoy food and loves to eat... but do they know why? why do i enjoy food so much?
Excluding the factor of which my love for food is moderately high, it is also the company which i have when im eating and that, makes eating so happy and fun... i never ever enjoyed food when im alone or when im with people that im not close to... but when i am... i totally enjoyed the company, plus food. i also don enjoy food when the people who eats with me does not enjoy theirs...
thats why i nv force him to eat sakae, yoshinoya or xiaolong bao with me again.. because he has plainly announced that he does not enjoy those food... therefore eating these food with him only makes my day bad and not better.. i would rather eat alone than seeing him not enjoying the food..worse is.. he critiscize them... thats y i always choose to eat these food alone or with my friends instead of him....
i hate those comments about the food not being gd enough to spend that amount of money on it... honestly .. i don care... sometimes its the company and atmosphere which i wanted that makes me enjoy eating.. not really the food...
i always read about couples and friends going out to eat and having so much fun.. a good example would be lik zhihong and his gf... which i've always read about them eating at no signboard restuarant... although it always cost a bomb .. but they enjoyed each other's company immersely... at times... its not the price... not the food that matters.. its and comapny you have and enjoying the company you have....
another would be debbie... it was always fun for her... was it the taking of photos that makes her day? or was it the company she had? or the food was simply delicious? but at least it is plain to see the she enjoyed every moment of it....
one opinion does not fits all... an opinion is not everything... everyone has different opinion.. and everyone enjoys different things.. that is y.. there are things that everyone do it separately... and alone... becoz only they themselves appreciates it... and no one else does...
sometimes i felt that no one really enjoyed being with me... im juz trying to enjoy my time as much as im allowed to by myself... even when im with others... the enjoyment was nv a big part of it... going through wateva im doing is the bigger part... like... completing a meet up with friends... going for shopping with friends or him ( which is super seldom now....).. or even juz for a dinner... it was always about completing what i had to do.. and nv really looking forward to enjoy my time...
will there ever be a person who likes what i do...? enjoys that i am enjoying? and simply love and contented to see me enjoying and being content lik i would have love the people around me to be when there are with me??... i doubt there would ever be such a person... everyone is juz simply by themselves... and never tgt...
i don need a bday celebration.. it is simply pointless...