have been sick for the past 4 days... feel so dead.. tml doing opening... ytd's shift at paragon was fun... busy, but nevertheless, fun.
other than getting that surprise card from him.. today is juz wrong wrong and so wrong... i juz hate today...hate that my irritation come first instead of concern... and i hate that he doesnt listen to my part of explaination and get fustrated at things that i was trying to explain... i juz hate him reacting as if im forcing him to the wall before i could explain things at LS... and i've already said a thousand times that when im quiet, im juz trying to stop myself from saying the things that i don really meant... im juz trying think and to understand... u also had ur times when u need to think or wateva... y cant i have mine? muz quiet always equals to angry? hiax.. sometimes we juz don get each other and i dunno how can we get along or how we did manage to until now.....
no matter how many times the same thing repeats.. if you don say.. i wun noe and i wun understand.. i am not mind reader...same goes to.. if you don lik tat shop( regardless of wateva reason)... if you don say.. then i wun noe... and if i think you are perfectly ok wth this shop... then i see no reason y suddenly you are not ok, unless u have a perfectly reasonable ans for it... tats y im fustrated... it is so hard to tell your gf you simply don lik the feel of the shop from the first time we got in? if you told me under normal time, we cld have avoided that shop. =( is it becoz of pride tat prevents you from saying? or u didnt think it was important enough?.. well now it becomes a prob btw us... is it still a small prob?
sometmes to you.. everything u also say is small prob... u nv noe how i feel... not everyone feels wat you feel, think wat you think.. and definitely not me.. i need you to say... then i understand...
relationship is sometimes nice, sometmes great, sometimes neutral..hateful at times AND.. sometimes FUSTRATING TO BOOT...
found: By saying the right words, at the right time, to the right person, then onli will it be useful. If not, it will either turn harmful, orrrr rubbish.
today sux.. i hate today. fustrated fustrated fustrated. and i hate tis phrase" i dunno".. u'll nv noe wat is the person thinking when they say this... fustrated... so if anyone use it on you.. use it back on them...let them try... either it works... or they don even wan to bother to try and know wat you tinking.
can i scream.. i feel lik going out of the house now... but where can i go?... shit shit shit shit shit.