many a times.. i feel that people ard me are slipping away from me... nv lik it once.. but i didnt think i have a choice... becoz its out of my control... still.. i don't lik it... and life moves on...


a few moments ago.. i sent a email to Bota, asking about them and little Samnang and Soprom... i really miss them alots.. i miss hugging Samnang... i miss Samnang being clingy to me.. i felt lik being a mother like figure... i miss him alot alot.... Soprom wasnt clingy coz he hopping everywhere playing with everyone.. its until he wrote me that sweet sweet letter then i knew he had me in his heart all along... =)

i miss them both so much... smtimes dream of playing with all of them in Sangkheum centre... If i ever get the chance to so Samnang and Soprom again.. i'll make sure i'll hug them real tight the moment i see them...


full of envy for Sherman... he is going back to Cambodia and most probably visit the children at Sangkheum too... he accompanys his sister..hmm... if only my family could afford another trip.... hiax... well.. i juz have to work hard and hope that i get the chance to go back... I will... i will go back.. and hopes that everyone still remembers me when im back.... but i guess when im back.. my little Samnang and Soprom wun be so little anymore.. and they wun be so clingy to me either... I really miss Samnang's hug.... smtimes i hope i didnt have to leave.. and could hug him forever... their lives are so simple over there.. and mind so innocent.. smiles so genuine... its a wonder who could resist loving the children... they are precious =)


i had some questions in mind.. i didnt noe to ask anot... actually i had alot of questions.. mostly triggered by naive thoughts... knowing that it would be so.. but still hoping that there might be miracle...

things are so different now.. everything is so different.... everyone is so different... mayhep.. so am i....


i hope to find satisfaction in life.. then will i able to tell myself that im happy... that is becoz im content... when one is not satisfied nor contented... then they are not happy... am i asking for more.. or am i asking back what that had slip from me? ... either way.. i understand that im not getting my way in this situation... i juz need to find contentment.. content with what i have... content with what i cant have back.. and content with what i will nv have...