mind is moving... i am eating... la la la la la....

well... its sun =) totally enjoyed myself this weekend during work... although there've been a few cork ups here and there... but i still enjoy makin the beverages... i think thats the best part of it! especially at the BAR.... doing the drink.. drink calling... sounds great! and feel great! when i got the drinks right of course.. lol... and i not so kan chiong spider le... hehe... but i kinda gt scald by the hot milk while i was steaming the milk.... but when i told laogong... he kinda laughed at the temperature rather than asking after me...felt kinda weird and taken aback.... but anyway... its nth... i was alright half an hour later when my skin cooled down... hmm...=)

he told me someone fancied him... hmm.. well ... happy for him then...

im trying to fill up my life in the mist of emptiness here and there... haven finish PP..omg... dunno how..... this week is all pack... omg...meetings and help out for setting up of new store...although schedules been all pack... but somehow.. i still feel empty... couldnt fathom it either... maybe i do.. but i juz didnt know the solution for it... so maybe im avoiding it... i hope it does not come to the inevitable situation....becoz i don wan it to come to tat...

mentally... im empty... physically... my schedules all packed...

i somehow envy them now... although i had my share already... but theirs doesnt seem to end... or is there ''renewation''? =x ... juz lik books... maybe these types of things can be renewed too?.. hiax.. i hope i can do it immediately... it feels rather terrible, being stucked... maybe thats wat everyone have to go thru... there maybe 3 outcomes... positive, neutral, negative.... which will be mine...

that day was the first time time i had a row lik this with someone... i dunno y.. i juz burst...i couldnt hold it in me for long...and afterwhich... i felt really empty... no matter how much things i do.. i juz couldnt feel it up... no matter how busy i am.. i still felt empty.... juz lik this...

im sick again.. kinda irritating.. sneeze till nose gonna drop le... its as though my body forcing me to eat properly.. if not it'll be on strike.. lol...

im totally clueless in writing report....especially strategic ones... omg... forcing myself to complete it before 1 aug... although its the dateline for draft only.. but i hope to get it approve then don need do le.. lol... im totally idiots with report... not my cup of tea... lol..

focus focus... to finish this project is my priority!

and im going to get myself UNsick again... arghhh...

tot today gonna be a nice fri.. but turns out not very fine either....

went home... and end up got scolded for nth by sis abt the laundry when i helped to get her thngs to her...... everything she say... i do.. then she not happy... so we end up shouting at each other... and of course i won... i didnt win in the past is becoz i wasnt firm enough to prove my pt... now i am...so im not accepting those nonsense from her anymore...

so met up with laogong for dinner... thanks for buying the cute hello kitty... =) was kinda surprise when he ask me play badminton this afternoon... too bad.. no court...

so we ate our dinner... then went back to his hse.... we were actually sprinkling water at each other... but suddenly laogong got fierce and asked me to stop doing it.. becoz the floor is all over with sprinkled water... so... the playful moment was gone.... i didnt understand y he had to make such a great fuss over it... and got fierce all of a sudden... afterall the floor can be wipe and really.... it does not turn moldy with water u noe...

anyway.. back to the pt... i got no mood all of a sudden... becoz we were playing happily but he kinda killed tat moment... i was angry.. and he tried to talk... but all he repeated and repeated was that he wasnt being fierce to me...obviously nth seems wrong to him becoz after a while... he asked... " do you really wan to get angry over this?" ......im kinda tired to giving the angry reaction after a while.. so i went to slp.... afterwhich he woke me up.. and he sent me home....

kinda felt lik crying alot...

working tml.. stresssssssss.....................

i noe you tried to cheer me up... thanks... and the for kitty and the fries too....i didnt noe y our communications end up lik this... but i still love you... although u seldom tell me u miss me anot.. but i do.. i really do...everyday, even when i don wan to tok to you =) Gd night...

Kailesh...
hahaha!!! he's happy to play!
Kailesh resting his head on my leg!
sweet puppy lying beside me^^
He is big!!! omg... lol... his juz 4 mth old... and when he stands.. he is at my waist!! lol



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Weight: male: 45-65; female: 35-50 lbs

Height: male: 21-23.5, female: 19-21 inches

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** Darling Dave ** We miss u **

i don think we communicate much, its was much more of disagreement, giving up of disagreement and juz tat and more of that.... if we see closely... there wasnt much real communication btw us anymore....

we tok on msn this afternoon... as usual he talked half way suddenly disappear.... i half expected it le ba... but i still will wait for his reply....i noe that he might have fallen asleep or doing homework... but i wld appreciate if he tell me he is going to be away from keyboard so i wun keep waiting for his reply even if i noe he is not going to.... smtimes it can be fustrating to wait for replies that don come... same goes for sms... but i told myself after tat... that i would no longer expect his reply from next time onwards... and if he does... then i'll juz be happy and take it as a bonus for myself....

naturally... for my spiteful nature... i didnt contact him much after tat and let him cope with the evening himself...and since im with bao, mrs lee, kailesh and my juniors...im not really angry... im tired of being angry anyway...

sometimes.. for attention that i hope to get... he doesnt know it or didnt noe to give it... so i guess its fair and square that i gave my attention to something else for myself, instead of waiting...becoz sometimes... waiting is kinda agony....sry for doing that... but i guess its better for myself.. so i could leave u to do wat u wan and not ask for too much of ur attention....

had sakae sushi with bao.. hohoho... nice!... hmm.. in the past i usually enjoy nice food with laogong once in a while... i guess thats another way to communicate... but i don think he likes the food that i like... so... as time goes... i spend my time eating favourite foods with my friends now, instead of him... its juz too bad... becoz i think we were happier in those times....

i noe im being bad that day juz spending all my time reading story book in his hse... but usually when i does nth... he does not give me much attention too... and when complain... he usually lik to ans me back that even if im in my hse i ave nth to do... so might as well be in his hse... hmm.. but what i wanted to highlight is... i wanted his attention thats y i came... not beocz to go there watch TV by myself....i think laogong has an "talk back" de bone in him... even when he ask you the reason y are yo angry and you when u explain... he still lik to tok back ... hiax...im kinda feeling nonchalant to it liao....

anyway.. after dinner we went back to mrslee hse to play with Kailesh... we got the sad news that Dave passed away 3 mths ago... hiax.... our sweet Dave... hmm... Kailesh looks like Dave now becoz he is still a puppy.... when he grows to an adult he'll look lik lion... and 7 times bigger than Dave... real playful and a cute puppy... he is a puppy now, bt when he stands, he reached my waist.... 4 mths old.. lol... up load the pics next time....

tired le... gd nite...

okie.. had my 8 hrs of in-store training for 8 hrs... i onli went for one 10 min break.. lol... i very long nv take onli short break during work le... although i started from knowing nth... haha.. but at least i asked... so i learned!! and its fun... when i can help out... i feel useful... but when it comes to peak period an alot of orders is being made... i got flustered!! coz i still dunno how to mark the mark the cups and call the drinks... lol... so i can only help with buzzing, food the maintaining the order of untensils and cleanniess in the bar.... lol.. but i still did learn cup marking and calling drinks during the end... was so confusing... the normal drinks was ok... even with custom made... but i had a hard time grasping the cold beverages cup marking.. omg... and i still remember all of it.... time passes real fun over there~~~

all in all.. today although was busy and flustered but its still fun fun fun!!! and when i grasp the cup marking and doing coffees... im sure it'll be more fun =)

hmm... came up wit another thought again.. lol... im juz too free during free time... other than looking for new theories and question.. i guess i have nth better to do...ok.. back to the question... " does love means to show that you constantly care or is it to show it only when someone really needs it or only when someone ask for it..?"... so what do you think?... i thnk it depends... it varies for different people... i think maybe when you meet that right person.. everything might work out... but in reality... i really don think so either...( lol ... contradicting myself again..).... maintaining a relationship needs to accept and to care....and maybe the right one will try to understand..... that is of course if they have not in the first place..... so........... friends out there... have you found the right one?.... haha....

family love.. especially from mum and dad is the best how to maintain a relationship with the one you love... no matter what we do.. they would always show us that they care and let us know that we r being love =) ( well... in their own diff little ways... )

anyway... for love... regardless for family or friends or relationship.... are you at the receiving end or giving end?...... hmm... gd question for everybody to think thru too.....

mon- work
wed - tennis
thurs - baoxin to mrslee

lalala.... sat is the 19th... but im working... 2-6pm... hmm i wonder if there's still time.. i hope so.. laogong is woking too ba... M3 i guess... hmm... we'll see how ba....

i really dunno wat i wan... i merely juz go with the flow... wat seems to be right doesnt really feel right... wat seems to be wrong doesnt really feel wrong either... hiax... life is complicating... family is the best( as in the one you are born to be wit) ... you can be whoever you wan to be... but how many of us really spend most of our time with family?.. hmm....

laogong was talking abt his future prospect and his expectations of himself.....gd that he had some ideas about what it wants.... but talking to him when he already has his mind full of his ideas can be tedious... becoz he doesnt really acknowledge wat u say after tat.... well.. im sure he can accomplish what he wants.... so i wun need to worry at all .... but if he really need some sound ideas... i don mind asking my sis for some..... but looks lik he is doing fine for himself now.... and thats gd too.... jia you ba... =)

i wonder if things might change for us....since we r both going diff paths... meeting diff people at different stages of life... but i guess its still too early to think abt it... juz go with the flow ba...

now.. this makes me think wat i want... actually i tot of going into IT industry too... but that depends on how i fare now.... dunno... see how first ba... but im aiming for air stewardess first definitely... =)

tml having breakfast with laogong... im cooking actually... =) hmm everyone have their own cooking habits or way on different things.... so i hope he could respect my decision on doing my own things my way instead of empahsising that wat i believe in might not be right becoz it has no scienctific provings..... and what he thinks is right, people shld try.... i don lik to do things when i don believe in it or don like it... juz like he doesnt do things that he doesnt think its right. no one likes to do the things that they don believe in.... its the same for everyone....

inturn i would learn to respects his believe, when he wan things done his way while he is doing his own things.... maybe he don wan to sound that way... but he did... so i hope he wun do it too often...which is juz lik he don like me to repeat "no no no no"..... becoz its irritating.....its the same.... =)

oh... thanks for telling me wat you shldnt say...haha... i wasnt angry.... =) some times i really dunno how to react to such news.... shld i get jealous? or pretend nth happen? or appear interested?... maybe i'll try one reaction everytime you tell me something that bfs usually don tell their gfs... lol...it might be fun...

okie.. im going to slp.. need to wake up to cook tml.... well.. juz something extremely simply... nth much... but at least edible... lol....

hmm... today was kinda ok... expect the end...

was really trying to not get fed up angry over the things that i usually do.. wasnt really hard as long i set my mind to the " I don mind " mode.... and was kinda cheerful today... i decide to let laogong see my "school" self today...coz usually im cheerful in sch more than the complaining self.... oh didnt really work out towards the end... he said i sound weird and wasnt use to it.... maybe i play the "no" thingy too much... become a habit... nvm.. i'll try not to do it infront of him... its a " sch thing" after all... lol....

but actually when im overly cheerful.. i will miss out the details i always do notice... so i wun complain.... and tats what i've been trying to do today...hmmm....

i wonder if is there a day we could juz except each other the way we are... lalalalala....but now im able to accept certain things liao... i juz need to do my own things and not want or except too much.. yea... its kinda gd strategy... when im busy... i wun go look for small details... even when i do get unhappy over things... i wun have the strength to argue it orwant to argue it.... then i got use to it... lol....

actually we ppl shld not expect too much from our partners... that only makes the things they do for us look lesser... or when they do not do smth, we get disappointed.. so why not don expect any and get happy over the things they actually do?... isnt it better than expecting them to do smthing more or special...? and making wat they have already done, unspecial...?

had my espresso cls today and was real fun....i love brewing coffee!

itssssss...............MONDAY~~~~ nearly did nt wake up..thanks to laogong for waking me up and mum for driving me to sch.. hehe... im not late.....

lalala.. nth much to say... bye!

hmm... wat can i say about today... an uneventful day... yet eventful.... im being contracdicting...

uneventful yet eventful becoz things didnt turns out the way it shld be....seeing the ppl that ought not to see, thinking the things that ought not to think, hoping the things that ought not to be hoped... and we end up doing nth for the day... or wandering with tots in our minds...
usually laogong would asked if we shld watch the next show timing if its not too late.... but i guess he needs to be away from there.... so we end up not watching.... and wandering.... and doing nth... he doesnt want to tok abt it... i can see.... becoz he tried to change topic again everytime i try to mention it... maybe i shld juz forget abt it... since he don wish to assure me anything... or don think he needs to... then i guess.... i can juz forget abt it... coz its not gonna drop from the sky..... and i don really need to care or ask.... asking abt wat he thinks.. or asking abt assurance...

i tried to reason it out... but i still cant think in a practical manner.... but i will... tml... i will....

actually im totally not tired today... physically... but i guess now, mentally, i am....

sometimes... to walk alone and sought thru some thoughts is a gd thing... or maybe not... it makes a person calmer... reasonable and hateful.... reasoning what shld be the right thing to think... what shld be the right thing to do...

i actually had a long chat with sis tat day... she gave me two options.... in or out.... yep... and i really don wish to noe what the end ans will be....

assurance....i'll give it to myself... everyone has the right to not disappoint anyone... but especially themselves.... so when someone disappoints me everytime... i'll make sure i disappoint myself a time lesser.... juz to make up fr what others did and did not make up for it.... for my own sake... i'll make it up to me....

its 11... and my new manager called me for a first impression meeting on sun... so last min... my schedule is all jumble up again... and worst case is.. i haven got them timing becoz they don noe yet....

laogong was tired today... so we end the day early.... i shld go slp too... but i cant....maybe not now... i got a real busy week to cope with.... i'll try to put some tots on hold... and worry abt it later... but i hate to do it... becoz no gals does.... we cant slp unless things are solved.... sis said its same for her too... so tat means im not alien..... next week is all abt me and myself....going for no ending classes do my own things... next week's life is only me... me and me....

i hate to put problems on hold.... thinking abt them later....or putting them or hold and forget abt it later... becoz i cant.... and i hate to think tml about tml's things... i prefer to do it one day earlier... but i guess im slowly getting use to this practice sometimes....

i hate to cant get to slp when i have problems in mind... but tat too.. i think i can slowly get use to it....

i learned to keep the things to myself more... and try to make it disappear into thin air... sometimes it work... most of the time it does not.... becoz i need it solved... to have my mind at peace.... but smtimes i manage to keep it... reason it out until it expires from my mind... even if i don get an ans to that prob... but as time goes... im juz to tired to think or care.... or to solve... becoz there are things that i cant solve it alone....unless i can master the art of forgetting... but usually.... i merely let it eat at my thoughts.... making me tired and eventually... i'll give up....

im going to slp... or shld i say i am going to try and slp.... gd nite everyone...

okie... im being selfish ytd.. because laogong said he is interested to work in Starbucks.. but i keep asking him not to come... hmm... the reason is... hurhur... i think laogong excel vry well in his work.. therefore im afraid if we work in the same job, there wld be comparison... and i wld appear lousier... then laogong wld think im lousy too...hmm... and i don wan him to think tat im lousy...lol... its a stupid thought i noe....

PS: im sorry for being selfish... forgive me yea? ... its good to learn and have new skills & experience... so if u realli interested...go for it =) if you realli work same job as me.. i'll try to be not so lousy... haha maybe tats a gd thing too...hehe... muackx... loves<3

lalalala.... i think im being a real lousy gf... i seem to keep adding on to laogong worries & unhappiness instead of making him happi...coz i always complain abt him... or fall sick.... hmmm.....i will and am working on it too...to be not so "complainy" of course... and not keep getting sick... hmm... ever since laogong told me abt my eatng and drinking habits, i tried to change le ba... and i think im getting better now... and wun get tired, restless and so easily... nor do i realli feel lik getting sick anymore~~~~ SAY NO TO VIRUS!!! lol...

busy busy lalala....

im trying to not spend so much... yea~
i think we are going back to Cambodia this Dec holi... lets jiayou and save money!!! Liyan and Jason is going most probably.. and weiming say he don mind to tag along to accomoany too.. hehe.... Lina and Rina is interested too i think... and not to forget my previous arch enemy in my last Cambodia trip, Soewandi is interested too... lol....

i miss laogong.. i very long nv say tat in blog le... hhehe.... and im gonna miss him alot for the next few weeks to come becoz i gonna be real busy...misses!