hmm... today was kinda ok... expect the end...

was really trying to not get fed up angry over the things that i usually do.. wasnt really hard as long i set my mind to the " I don mind " mode.... and was kinda cheerful today... i decide to let laogong see my "school" self today...coz usually im cheerful in sch more than the complaining self.... oh didnt really work out towards the end... he said i sound weird and wasnt use to it.... maybe i play the "no" thingy too much... become a habit... nvm.. i'll try not to do it infront of him... its a " sch thing" after all... lol....

but actually when im overly cheerful.. i will miss out the details i always do notice... so i wun complain.... and tats what i've been trying to do today...hmmm....

i wonder if is there a day we could juz except each other the way we are... lalalalala....but now im able to accept certain things liao... i juz need to do my own things and not want or except too much.. yea... its kinda gd strategy... when im busy... i wun go look for small details... even when i do get unhappy over things... i wun have the strength to argue it orwant to argue it.... then i got use to it... lol....

actually we ppl shld not expect too much from our partners... that only makes the things they do for us look lesser... or when they do not do smth, we get disappointed.. so why not don expect any and get happy over the things they actually do?... isnt it better than expecting them to do smthing more or special...? and making wat they have already done, unspecial...?

had my espresso cls today and was real fun....i love brewing coffee!