how shld i go about it... duno if that chance was a correct move.. i tot i was ready to let go... but he made me change my mind... after so much have happen ytd...but still we had disagreement again today... and i wasnt so sure if ytd's decision wasnt a right one anymre.. whether that hold back in the end was worth... pls prove to me that my decision in the end was correct...
i enjoyed those hugs and kisses today.. but i hope it wasnt all a farce to make me come back and in the end all is back to square one... i realise that if i willingly hold ur hand or be near you... u wun even bother to hold me close... becoz u think i wld always cling on to you... pls don take me for granted anymre... i wld rather be alone than be taken for granted...
smtimes i feel that it is all words.. and nv action... don always say sry le then doing it over and over again... becoz that way... ur sorries all meant very little... and you hurt me more each time, making me angrier each time...
and pls don always let my efforts of trying to make time out for us all go into waste... becoz im really tired of getting pushed away... i noe u worries and i noe u r tired, so f u r tired.. pls aprreciate wat i tried to do and let me feel that its worth it... i don need you to be the one popping infront of me giving me surprise..i juz need you to appreciate my efforts to spend time with you becoz i noe you are tired....
you wanted me to learn to trust and be nice to you... then stop pushing me away with all ur worries and make me feel unwanted... i tried to be positive and let myself be nice to you... don let me lock mysef again... there is only so much that i can give... if you keep pushing my efforts away... then one day... i might nv try to be nice again... let me feel that its worth the effort will ya?...
im not the one having attachment and getting so drain up of energy everyday, so pls accept what i can do for you... unless you prefer i don try...
everyone told me to let go... becoz everyone thnks too... that we arent gonna make it... i only hope that we can prove them wrong and find back the happiness... prove to ourselves that it is right to continue...
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**fun facts of the day**
yea, you got tanner and more macho le... happy ma? lol... cant stand you... where got ppl keep praising themselves de... learn to be abit more humble ba ... it will do you gd lol.. =)
oh... and take a look at my friendster comment eh... i did smth quite fun=) =x =p
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sis and bro-inlaw went for their 1st wedding anni in malaysia... and there.. sis accomplish our second most wanted wish... horse-riding... our first was to have an english garden wedding... she also had it le... hmmm....
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senghong kor was the first that i told wat happen ytd. he was all behind me in my decision and giving me great advice. thanks kor. but in the end, i chose to have one last chance for us, becoz even though logic and mind tells me its right to let go... but my heart cld not....
