i actually blog a real long post abt my thoughts. but i guess its too long, so only kept it as draft. didnt post.

sometimes i enjoy, smtimes im angry, sometimes im puzzle. gosh. was complicated.

tml its working time. and i noe im gonna enjoy it. today wasnt bad either, at least we didnt quarrel. hmm.. was indeed a nice day thru.

know what, im kinda confused by him, smtimes he talks lik some guy who does not care for others, but whenever after quarrelling he tries to do the things that i said before, but always did it half way. so i dunno to get angry with him or to be glad that he tried to mend what was broken.

now i dunno wat to think. i noe he tries. so i try to relent too. i dunno whether i shld get angry at the things he tries to do but end up doing it half way ( lik the faling asleep when he came ytd).. or be glad that he already tried.

smtimes i wonder am i driving you away with all these expectations, i hope not. hmm. i noe you were tired ytd. but thanks for coming. ( although you slept all the way thru-.-)

was starting to excerise le this week. was aching all over. but i need to work on eating less. i think that is rather hard for me lol . im sure he knows that very well too.