I told him i don feel im needed at all... i asked him y is it that im always the one to ask him out and he doesnt ask me out? doesnt he wan to see me on his own accord? guess wt he said? he said " at least i agreed to go out when you asked, would i bother to agree f i don wan to be with you or see you?"... when your bf says tat to you... you noe is hopeless to chase the case... he'll never get it thru his head....
I chose the day which he is least tired to ask him out... after dinner, its still early... but he only thought of sending me home... what would a gal think? i think that whether i bother to choose his least tired day anot to ask him out doesnt make a diff. becoz the result is the same.
we got fustrated. we argued.
he told me sry and that he would accompany me longer lik i wan..... but i said was... didnt you wan it? if you want it cant you show it?... don do things becoz i wan it... do it becoz you wan. I can never enjoy unless you willing want to spend ur time with me. not becoz i wan it.
i wan to noe that you do things becoz you wan it. show that you wan it. not becoz i asked you to. when i noe you do things that you want. then it is sweet. becoz i know it comes from you.
he don understand. he got fustrated i cried. i never noe why i always cry so easily when i quarrel with him...becoz before i started all this crying business.. i nv to anyone.. not even my mum...he got fustrated over all... i promise myself i'll nv let him see the weak side of me, i'll nv let him see i cried becoz of him again.
im gonna learn to live like i did in the past. im not gong to pester for ur attention anymore. i tried to adapt that you got attachment and is all tired. i tried to choose the day you are least tired. i tried to not ask you out even if i really want to see you becoz i noe you are really tired. but now i noe. it doesnt make a diff. becoz wat ever i do. i cant make you do you becoz you wan it. i will only ending up making you do wat i want.
what i want is for you to want it.but i don think that is gonna happen. and im not gonna force it anymore.
love and relationship is two diff things.
