Its a new term, guess im back to blogging again.

As usual, lik every other day, every other week, we had a disagreement again, many things happened during the holidays, he too, started his attachment training. And as for me, im doing rather well in work, and its time i do better in studies i guess.

So whats with our problem today?

Since he started his training, i knew he would be tired out, and wun have the mind to think abt making time out for me much, i don wan to stress him abt accompanying me too. so i told myself im gonna accomodate his time and make time out to accompany him as much as i could, but obviously he doesnt need it, becoz he kept telling me its ok, that i don need to sacrifice my time for work to accompany him and i can use my time to work and make money. Same goes for his bday, honestly i would willing give up that meeting if he needs it, or make time out for that night if he wans, but he don, so i guess i wun bother that much too. Well, there i was, wrecking my brain overhow to make our timing fits, and he kept telling me to go and work.

If one day i really leave you to be and thinks that making money is more important than making time for you, then i seriously suggest you find a new girlfriend. But in this case, since you gave permission, i wouldnt hesitate to use my spare time to work to make more money. If you wan to see me, you can make time urself to find me, if you cant make time out, then too bad.

i juz wanna you know that im not the kind who uses" im tired" and " i don have time" as excuses for our quarrels or for not having time with you. i do have the time. but you made it clear you didnt need it, time and time again.

this two weeks is the only weekends you arent working, thats why i was trying to spend more time with you. but you didnt need it, when the 3rd week starts, i guess i wun have to even think abt finding time, nor you, becoz you are starting to work too, and you gonna have training from mon to fri, and you know its going to tired you out everyday after training. and for weekends after work, i wun need to elaborate much. you know it urself.

you have ur own sets of priorities, gd luck with it. honestly, you really is a person who can excel in life, but maybe juz not relationships yet.

sometimes i juz felt im not needed. and it really feels lousy.
i tried to make things work too, despite you are real busy and tired now, but you kept making me feel that im not needed, no matter what i do. maybe you didnt mean it. but you did it.

im sure you wun mind that i don have time for you frm now onwards, becoz you are busy too. naturally i'll find things to do myself. no need to worry abt me either. and i wun worry abt you.

tml is the start of new sem and new cls, gd luck to myself . and im not taking elective on wed, so thats a free day for both working and tennis. hmm, i'll spend my time wisely, i hope.

the tot for Cambodia is currently postponed, becoz i think that before i go caring about other's life, i need to get my own life right before i do that. and my life until now arent totally in my control yet, so i guess things have to wait. im going to slp. gd nite