1.50 am 18/10/08
i seriously think that the line of communication btw us has broken... he always say he have nth to say... i cant know what he is thinking.. therefore i cant solve it... and cannot do anything abt it... therefore... i decide not to do anything anymore nor ask... i can only say wat i need to say... let him have his time alone lik he always request and then let him pretend that nth happen the next day... if its ok for you.. then i wld also pretend with you.. coz im out of solutions.... even keepng to myself for a few days doesnt prompt him to say anything abt it... therefore i can juz try to forget abt it and live life as though nth happen....
you don say it.. u don wan me to sms it... you don blog it... u kept it to urself... then continue having relationship with urself ba.... becoz you arent having relationship with me... u are having with urself....
you said the more you say the more wrong it is.... but how many times did we solve the probs when we talk it all out? and how many times we "solved" it by pretending t doesnt exist anymore....? think abt it....
again and again... those words hurt... but there wasnt even an indication of apologising for it(verbally nor actions).... merely stated that it was said during an out of turn, when angered.... no matter, i don really seem to mind or care anymore.... im kinda numbed by those words ever since...
sometimes i really don understand how you can get angry back at me when im angry with you... and end up turning the tables on me.. obviously even getting angry doesnt make a diff anymore...
maybe not wanting others noe is wanting privacy... they tot we are perfect... actually we are the exact opposite... funni isnt it.. im tired of not wanting to let ur friends think we are less than perfect...lik the chalet... we were in obvious disagreement before we reached..you wun even bother to talk to me on the way to the chalet.... but when we reached... i didnt want to let you throw face therefore i changed my attitude towards you... and during chalet.. you were the perfect attentive bf... but out of it.. everything is diff le... i rather i not face them... you can do it.. so you go ba.. coz i cant... there is sm things that i cannot pretend to others...
