totally defeated. i nv had someone lecture me for so long and i did not talk back. bravo. but at the time... my brain was blank...the chalet thing was my fault... but you wldnt understand that i cant use ur money free-of-guiltly unless tis relationship is a stable one....im not use to it, espcially so much money... juz for me....both touched and afraid that you wld be double disappointed if we didnt work out and also you spent so much money....... i was looking out for ur hard earn money... but you thought i insulted u... too bad then...
im juz mute.. void of reaction... void of feelings for the disagreement....
i have the mind to stay mute... i juz feel lik shutting myself off....
anyway... there i need to repeat again.. im not u... i cannot work lik a on off button for happy and not happy... if im unhappy... i don have a on button for you to activate...
maybe next time i shld juz rant and rave and say those things u did this morn and say sorry,
and expect you to talk to me cheerily and forget everything juz becoz i feel that i don wan to angry anymore therefore we shld juz forget it.... that is pure selfishness.... u shld reflect upon urself too...
if you still think that not being able to be cheerful immediately is wrong... then seriously you can forget abt being at peace with me... you will always get fustrated y did i nt become happy right after you said smth nice after you say smth bad?
if you think that i really angry at every single thing... then its juz too bad... if i did... we wldnt have ate our dinner peacefully ytd night.....
if you don lik me to emo.. and everytime i emo u get fustrated.... whether isit becoz of you anot... then seriously im not the gal you want... i dunno how to keep my feelings to myself.... and you will always get fustrated everytime im emo about smth... even if its not abt u....
adding to ur " juz becoz of such small matters.....".... you have a new verse now too..." if you think/say/wan to be lik this.... then i have nth to say liao/i can not do anything then...."....
don worry... i'll be that journalist to help you collect ur irritaing verse as much as i can....
1st time
u ask me not to
2nd time
you said try
3rd time
u said i didnt think abt wat u think and you said becoz of such small matters don you think its stupid?
there wun be 4th.....not from me anyway....
anyway... looks lik i only blog when im unhappy... hmm hmm hmm...
