today is serene and sinyi's bday.. happy bday to both and also to yiai whose bday was on 9 of june... every year i see them wit loads of presents... sometimes envy them too... i'll be over the top if i have more than 3 presents lor.. lol...

compared to ytd.. i miss him even lesser.. becoz i now he don need me liao... anyway.. got this song... a part which really describe what i wan to say...

If i were a boy - Beyonce

When you lose the one you wanted..Cause he's taking you for granted..And everything you had got destroyed..

well.. i didnt lose him yet... but he is getting outrageously in the habit of taking me for granted... realli hate it and cant stand it...he said i treat him cold.. that i shldnt becoz he is in tekong... tekong very big ah? let see if theres any diff if he comes out of that tekong... how long wld he take to go back to old self again.. i wan to see... he nv ever change... onli noe how to use mouth say and give me reason y i shld not be cold to him... honestly he deserve non better.. he doesnt need it anyway... he only need my support for first 2 days only... obvious...

excuses excuses... " i thought this i thought tat" wait till he say tat to his commander.. and get punish... serves him right.. and if he doesnt... that means im the only one he take for granted la... so y bother be so nice to him? better be nicer to myself....i shld have said "i also thought u don bother so i also don bother lor... "


anyway.. today work was busy until my whole mind became numb.. after work went to meet up with sinyi and all.. had dinner at Jack's place... food was ok ba... after which took ming zheng's car to pak pool with them all... fun lor.. coz i won all.. only times i lost was when white ball went in with the black.. i won JINGKAI! happi lar...

everyone asked me if he realli woo me now wld i accept.. of course not lah... although he is charming and realli nice and at times do very sweet stuffs that i usually wun encounter... but he is not my type.. as in... he juz wans a fling and is a totally flirt.....and i have laogong liao.. loads better than him... although laogong not very sweet one but at least he is more faithful la... *.* ( mr bear.. faithful is gd but doesnt win everything hor... don gloat yet... moron...)

guys ard me and all weird... he wans a fling which i feel that his extend of wooing is abit more than it shld be coz i already made myself clear.. but seems that he kept trying once in a while and see if works anot... duh! ... laogong leh.. takes me for granted lik noboy's bloddy business which totally disappoint me.. i tot being in army he would change abit... obviously old habits die hard... totally diappointed....

my family? well.. don really treat me lik one... sis was suspected of H1N1. was admitted to hospital ytd for test... today shld be the dat result comes out.. i call my bro-in-law... my hse... everyone say not yet and wld tell me immediately if they noe.. and guess what.. by the time i finish work and call again.. they said she is ok and going off to work again liao.. well... who am i in this family? NOTHING?! i guess so.. seems so that... even these kind of things they don bother to update me on... when i got home.. i was angry.. i ask kor y nv tell me... and he asked me smth which made me wash my hands off them... he ask me " y leh... whats the obligations and implication? does it implicated me or my life schedule?" yea.. im saying it now..... damn right it doesnt implicated me... they can go rot in hell i also don care... don ever inform me anymore...

family lik tat and bf went in army still lik tat... hopeless... all hopeless... there nth i can say anymore abt them.. disappointment no end...