everyone onli noes of what they wan of me or wat they wan frm me... does anyonw bothers abt what i wan? what i need?
sister hog me abt getting the job when now im struggling with fyp to graduating..
mum hogs me abt her future allowance and when i can get my job....
work has expectations to meet which im struggling too..
fyp... is disaster but we are still rushing do do it better...
he only wans me to understand him.. who understand me then?
does anyone bother how much i had to cope? fyp & work is already enough... sis is blaming me if i don go for that interview and get tat damn job...i told her im busy... all she said was... " can u even go and maintain that profile... DOES SHE NOE HOW MUCH I HAD TO COPE?? she don freaking bother at all... all she knows is if i get that job.. the family burden is no longer her my shoulder...
i wan to shout... but shout it to who? no one wld listen.. no one is listening... ocassionally i tell my friends abt this and tat.. but who can i tell what im really going thru?
im so freaking tired and stress out.. every one has their expectation of me and expect me to meet those expectation... im really dying out of energy.. im really tired .. im really really tired.. anyone bother?
im struggling to put in shifts to work so i have money...and im so tired juggling shift, and sch and fyp now... but where does alll my money go? every time i manage to save some mum took some.. then hw? why do i slog so much? why do i make myself so tired?
they only know how to ask me.." why today at home? why nv go work ... why nv do project?".... they never ever ask me" are you tired? y don u take a day off?"
i wanted this job so much... but they are now treating my wants to their advantage... pushing me to imediately get the job even before i graduate... DON THEY BOTHER IF I NEED A REST NOT? im so freaking tired out and nobody cares...they only noe to ask me to keep moving.. keep working.. keep making money... nobody bloody cares what i really need....
