ok.. 12.47am in the morning.. working at 7 am later... cant slp.. too sad to slp? too fustrated to slp? .. i guess my heart is juz to empty for me to fall asleep.. juz felt so hollow...

anyway went to alan's belated bday party on sat.. although there isnt much of people i noe.. only a few.. but it really makes me wonder how time had passed and everyone have grown... and i missed the old times.. although old times doesnt means its all good... but i noe its definitely better than now.. no stress... juz books and fun and stealing glances at people we like, getting into fights with bois... playing basketballs and getting hit by it... playing truth and dares and doing stupid forfeits...heartbroken over getting dumped... happy when we've found someone new to like... driving teachers crazy with fury... it all leads to 3 words... innocence, mischief and fun...

no regrets on what happens when we were young.. but maybe one.. only wish there was chance to clarify... but well.. thats too much to ask.. everyone has our own lives to lead and doesnt need stupid changes which might jeopardize anything...

anyway.. if a guys scolds you like a kid and even after you cried he doesnt stops at all... he's not worth loving...